Astrological chart!!!
I think this kinda explain why I am the way I am!!!suprizingly most of it is true..the first line was shocking..

"Those with their Venus in Pisces are often in love with the notion of being in love. Not very real, eh? Call it fantasy if you will, but those enjoying this placement are sensitive, compassionate and romantic souls who simply march to the beat of a different drummer. Much like the Fish who grace their House of Love, these folks love to swim in the sea of love. It's wet, wild and wonderful in there! Even so, this intense desire to be in love can lead to seeing what they want to see, not what is really there. How can this be? Isn't love supposed to be beautiful and true? Once again, a bit of fantasy mixed with reality, but that's what happens when Venus is visited by Pisces. As well, those with their Venus in Pisces see love and sexuality as spiritual experiences: a state of love is not worth achieving unless it is accompanied by complete transcendence and bliss. Not everyone can swim in this sea, but for those who can, it's a complete experience. Having your Venus in Pisces may mean that you spend a lot of time explaining yourself, especially where affairs of the heart are concerned. That's okay, because these people would only want to be with someone who appreciates, and understands, their often misunderstood souls."
source: http://www.ivillage.com/